Seeking Truth, Synchronicities, and Going To India

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Quote of the Week:

“What you seek is seeking you.” – Rumi

In this week's dose, I share how seeking truth has led me to India.

For the last 18 months, I’ve felt a stirring within me, like an evolution is coming. I sensed it last year, and my move to Austin was driven by the feeling that this was a place that would support it.

I've been reflecting on how my business could evolve: who will I help, what will I help them with, and in what capacity? Community, coaching, content, courses, retreats?

I’m a seeker of truth.

The other night, I was reading Ram Dass’ autobiography—from Harvard professor to leading the psychedelic movement to studying with a guru in India—and I started laughing.

I thought, “How did I get here? How in the heck did I get into this kind of material?” It's fascinating because the truth is, I have no idea. I just kept pulling the string, and it kept unraveling, leading me to whatever the next step was. Why am I drawn to these philosophical, theological, spiritual ideas? And why do I love exploring a variety of perspectives instead of fully committing to one specific lineage or practice?

I have no clue. But here I am.

So back to the stirring... I realize I seek answers—I crave a deeper truth. It feels like a part of me deep within is driving the vehicle. When I resist it, things don’t feel great. When I surrender, I get the answers I'm looking for, and everything works out beautifully.

Lately, I've also been thinking about traveling more. I thought about going to Denver to train jiu-jitsu at my old academy with a friend for a week to hike, meditate, and write. I’ve thought about going on a solo expedition somewhere in nature. But I’ve also been seeking to deepen my spiritual practice, specifically with meditation. I’ve looked into meditation retreats and even applied for a 10-day silent Vipassana retreat.

I’ve also had this random urge to go on a mini “pilgrimage” to some sort of spiritual site. Maybe a famous cave in Northern India, a temple in New Mexico, or even the local Austin Zen Center.

I also thought about a month-long trip through India, visiting cities and sites I’ve read about this year - but I got overwhelmed when I opened Google Maps for research.

Then, the coincidences and synchronicities started happening…

I met up with a friend after she returned from a 3-month trip to San Francisco. I shared how challenging the summer was and what I learned from it. She asked if I’d ever considered going to a service, retreat, or ceremony in person—like group meditation or a church service. Not to join a religion, but just to experience being in the presence of something like that.

It was something I’d been thinking about, but nothing felt like it resonated.

Two days later, I had a call with another friend. She shared that she was going on a 15-day guided trip to India with one of her teachers. They would visit 5-6 cities and the trip would serve as a "spiritual pilgrimage".

It would be framed around bhakti yoga (a spiritual path focused on cultivating deep love, devotion, and surrender to the divine), and they would visit various sites around India. Checking out Sikh, Buddhist, and Hindu sites along with the Ganges and Himalayan foothills.

And it hit me—this is what I’ve been looking for. The trip checks all the boxes.

International travel, self-discovery, pushing my comfort zone, a pilgrimage, and experiencing in-person practice with others. We’d even be visiting 2 to 3 places I read about earlier this year that called to me. I resonate with the idea of bhakti because the moments when I’ve felt my best are when I’m engulfed in love—when I surrender to a higher intelligence and power.

So, I decided to go for it. For the first 3 weeks in November, I’ll be roaming India, from Delhi to the Himalayas. It feels exciting, scary, and a little weird.

I never thought in a million years I’d be on this path or going on this kind of trip, but even though I don’t know exactly how I got here... I know exactly how it happened. In the last 18 months, I’ve felt a growing sense of connectedness with everyone and everything. I’ve become obsessed with learning more about it and experiencing it on a deeper level.

It feels like I’m surrendering to life more, and through this surrender, life is saying, “I GOT YOU.” 

The more I experience that, the more at peace I feel. The more connected I feel to everything.

For a long time, I’ve avoided talking about the spiritual side of my journey, but in truth, it's what drives everything. I’m realizing that my path to Self-realization has been guiding me all along. These aspects of my life aren’t separate as I once thought—they’re one and the same.

I’m excited to step into the wild unknown of India, but in some way, it feels like it’s been a long time coming.

It’s interesting to reflect on where I’m at now and what it took to get here. When I quiet my mind, it feels like something else entirely is driving the ship.

Do you ever feel a call from within to seek more truth?
Even if you can’t explain why or where it comes from?